I'm finally back home!
I was away on a four-day biology trip recently and it was not as horrible as I had anticipated. It was just not fun, especially for me. I have learnt that I am clearly an urban spirit I do not particularly fancy anything that has to do with nature.
We basically did the most random things but all about biology; this part wasn't too bad. The bad parts were the actual locations of the various activities. It was a National Park so there were bugs, mosquitoes, reeds, horses, donkeys, cows, birds (basically an intense dearth of basic civilization) and although the hotel was fantastic we didn't even spend close to half the time in it.
Don't get me started on the food. I just finally know for sure that switching to a healthy eating lifestyle will definitely be tasking for me. All in all, the trip was looking like one I would leave saying "I had fun" until I fell down and twisted my ankle for the first time ever. So now I'm sitting in bed with a sore ankle and an SAT Manual and will probably be like this for the next few days.
17 Sept 2011
10 Sept 2011
Poem I wrote for Femme Fatale
INTERRED
"... cause the way things are going, I'm starting to wonder if we could even try to be friends.."
He handed me my heart.
He held it out to me like that dirty piece of cloth you can't stand to hold on to for another second.
Just like that, in less than 100 characters he sent me his final goodbye.
I sat there like a glass of cold water had just been thrown in my face; I was in shock.
I didn't know what to do with the little smoke cloud of pride that was left after the explosion of my heart.
Please allow me elaborate on what we 'were' in a few sentences or two.
You see, we had that 'unspoken secret' love affair type.
You know the one where he has a girlfriend and you have a boyfriend but you still have that underground type thing? Yes, he was that secret I let caress my tongue each time I gossiped with friends because I would have to hold myself back from letting the cat out.
When we became exclusive, I was that girl he'd skip class for.
We were wild and crazy lovers, our souls seemed perfectly aligned.
I'd stay up at night listening to him whisper insignificant plans for our future and then my mind would actually make out childish fantasies of this life he had described so vividly to me.
But then his friends suddenly became the commentators of our love life. I never knew him to be the type to seek counsel from fools who had hisbest interests lost somewhere in their minds but it turns out he was a fool
because his best friend overfed my phone with messages that enveloped those cheesy 'pick-up lines' that make you cringe or almost puke every other day.
Don't you just hate it when this happens? The same people he trusted were playing darts upon his back and he was oblivious to this fact.
When he sat in front of me, I didn't see him only a spitting image of what all his 'guys' looked like
and that frustrated me until I reached that juncture where I let him do whatever the hell he'd want.
I know I should not have condoned such a mess for that long but honestly, he had me.
That was why I would go to bed releasing the flood gates and my pillow would nearly drown because he did more than I could take.
And those sugar-coated lies he told just to postpone the pain I'd eventually feel were like the inhaler to the asthmatic creature I had become.
Now its all over, my body is suddenly my property again and each place you touched me recites a story of what you felt like.
I yearn to have that feeling again but there is no 'for sale' sign here so you can tell your friends to check the next street.
You handed me my heart so now that too is mine again but left all the memories and they will remain with me, interred deeply in my bones.
Blog Link: http://femmefatale-4.blogspot.com/
"... cause the way things are going, I'm starting to wonder if we could even try to be friends.."
He handed me my heart.
He held it out to me like that dirty piece of cloth you can't stand to hold on to for another second.
Just like that, in less than 100 characters he sent me his final goodbye.
I sat there like a glass of cold water had just been thrown in my face; I was in shock.
I didn't know what to do with the little smoke cloud of pride that was left after the explosion of my heart.
Please allow me elaborate on what we 'were' in a few sentences or two.
You see, we had that 'unspoken secret' love affair type.
You know the one where he has a girlfriend and you have a boyfriend but you still have that underground type thing? Yes, he was that secret I let caress my tongue each time I gossiped with friends because I would have to hold myself back from letting the cat out.
When we became exclusive, I was that girl he'd skip class for.
We were wild and crazy lovers, our souls seemed perfectly aligned.
I'd stay up at night listening to him whisper insignificant plans for our future and then my mind would actually make out childish fantasies of this life he had described so vividly to me.
But then his friends suddenly became the commentators of our love life. I never knew him to be the type to seek counsel from fools who had hisbest interests lost somewhere in their minds but it turns out he was a fool
because his best friend overfed my phone with messages that enveloped those cheesy 'pick-up lines' that make you cringe or almost puke every other day.
Don't you just hate it when this happens? The same people he trusted were playing darts upon his back and he was oblivious to this fact.
When he sat in front of me, I didn't see him only a spitting image of what all his 'guys' looked like
and that frustrated me until I reached that juncture where I let him do whatever the hell he'd want.
I know I should not have condoned such a mess for that long but honestly, he had me.
That was why I would go to bed releasing the flood gates and my pillow would nearly drown because he did more than I could take.
And those sugar-coated lies he told just to postpone the pain I'd eventually feel were like the inhaler to the asthmatic creature I had become.
Now its all over, my body is suddenly my property again and each place you touched me recites a story of what you felt like.
I yearn to have that feeling again but there is no 'for sale' sign here so you can tell your friends to check the next street.
You handed me my heart so now that too is mine again but left all the memories and they will remain with me, interred deeply in my bones.
Blog Link: http://femmefatale-4.blogspot.com/
9 Sept 2011
Promises
The rate at which human beings make promises without thinking still amazes me. Making a promise to do something does not make it more likely that you will do that thing. So its not relevant to promise to do something if you're no sure you can.
A friend of mine just moved to America and had promised to call me when he got there. Not that I cared if he called or not since we could still talk some other way. I warned him not to promise because he has the best track record for breaking promises but he insisted. And as you must have already guessed, he didn't call and now I'm upset with him.
Moral of the story? Don't make promises you can't keep. Better yet don't promise anything at all whether its a promise to God to to a fellow human, just don't; that is of course unless you're one hundred percent sure you won't break it.
"It is better to say nothing that to make a promise and not keep it" [Ecclesiastes 5:5]
A friend of mine just moved to America and had promised to call me when he got there. Not that I cared if he called or not since we could still talk some other way. I warned him not to promise because he has the best track record for breaking promises but he insisted. And as you must have already guessed, he didn't call and now I'm upset with him.
Moral of the story? Don't make promises you can't keep. Better yet don't promise anything at all whether its a promise to God to to a fellow human, just don't; that is of course unless you're one hundred percent sure you won't break it.
"It is better to say nothing that to make a promise and not keep it" [Ecclesiastes 5:5]
8 Sept 2011
Change
I have come to accept that everything in life is subject to change. Nothing can stay the same for sure and I guess that's just life. I think people should always learn to embrace change whether it is a major change in your life or someone you know that has changed. Change must always be accompanied with acceptance.
This summer, I changed a whole lot but not in who I am as a person rather in my general outlook on life. It all began when I stumbled upon this quote:
"For everything you have missed, you have gained something else and for everything you gain, you lose something else" - Ralph Waldo Emerson.
In life, you might miss out on a few things but you gain something worthwhile in exchange and sometimes people might perceive this as a changed attitude in you but that shouldn't bother you because always with change you might lose friends or people who don't accept the new you; this is how life sadly is.
I realized that this summer and I really sat down to think about the areas in my life that require change and so far I have been doing a good job. I get scared of trying out new things because I tend to be temperamental which would explain my inconsistency with blogging; this too will change.
I would like to refer to this stage as the 'maturing stage' in my life ("Its about time" my mother would most likely say if she read this.) and I'm loving every bit of it.
Speaking of change, I'm now a part of this other blog that's strictly about being artistic and its been going fantastic even though we've been doing a lot of writing in terms of poetry, prose etc. Anyway, kindly check it out: http://femmefatale-4.blogspot.com/
This summer, I changed a whole lot but not in who I am as a person rather in my general outlook on life. It all began when I stumbled upon this quote:
"For everything you have missed, you have gained something else and for everything you gain, you lose something else" - Ralph Waldo Emerson.
In life, you might miss out on a few things but you gain something worthwhile in exchange and sometimes people might perceive this as a changed attitude in you but that shouldn't bother you because always with change you might lose friends or people who don't accept the new you; this is how life sadly is.
I realized that this summer and I really sat down to think about the areas in my life that require change and so far I have been doing a good job. I get scared of trying out new things because I tend to be temperamental which would explain my inconsistency with blogging; this too will change.
I would like to refer to this stage as the 'maturing stage' in my life ("Its about time" my mother would most likely say if she read this.) and I'm loving every bit of it.
Speaking of change, I'm now a part of this other blog that's strictly about being artistic and its been going fantastic even though we've been doing a lot of writing in terms of poetry, prose etc. Anyway, kindly check it out: http://femmefatale-4.blogspot.com/
ELI
Iceprince's debut album 'Everybody Loves Iceprince' finally has a set release date. The wait is over and now all that can be done next is to countdown to the final release date of 7th Oct and the album launch on 9.10.11. I'm very excited and I have very high expectations so I hope the album does good.
31 Jul 2011
Desiderata (Desired things)
Recently, my whole family got together in London for our first offiicial family reunion. It was so much FUN!! But I couldn't help but think about the reason we all exist and that's my GRANDADDY! He's such a cool guy, I love him and all he's about. I remember him telling me about teaching all his kids the poem 'Desiderata' by Max Ehrmann. Its a poem about life and how it should be and you know what? Im gonna learn it too!!
Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.
1 May 2011
Spring Break
Today is the last day of the Spring Break now its back to work all day everyday. Not like I did anything but work this break anyway, so it really makes not difference to me. But its still sad anyway.
What did I get up to this break?
Nothing. All I did was revise for my SATs, kill myself for homework, and slave away.
I did however get to catch up on whats been going on with my friends :D
Usually, I can't skype them often enough due to the time difference issue since that would mean I'd have to stay up to skype them and I can't afford that during the school period. So yeah. I caught up with my friends and that was fantastic. I miss my friends sooooo much :'(
Now before you start thinking I did nothing but work, I didn't. Well for one day that is. I went to the park with Genia and Lisa :D it was really nice. Pictures?
PS. Today is my uncle's birthday! Whoooop!
I got to tell him first, I feel like the best niece in the world right now.
And apparently I got the date of my SATs mixed up smh. It's only members of my family that can mistaken a "7" for a "1". Anyway, I have 6 more days to go. I honestly can't wait for it to be over even though I'll still be taking it again, until then.
What did I get up to this break?
Nothing. All I did was revise for my SATs, kill myself for homework, and slave away.
I did however get to catch up on whats been going on with my friends :D
Usually, I can't skype them often enough due to the time difference issue since that would mean I'd have to stay up to skype them and I can't afford that during the school period. So yeah. I caught up with my friends and that was fantastic. I miss my friends sooooo much :'(
Now before you start thinking I did nothing but work, I didn't. Well for one day that is. I went to the park with Genia and Lisa :D it was really nice. Pictures?
PS. Today is my uncle's birthday! Whoooop!
I got to tell him first, I feel like the best niece in the world right now.
And apparently I got the date of my SATs mixed up smh. It's only members of my family that can mistaken a "7" for a "1". Anyway, I have 6 more days to go. I honestly can't wait for it to be over even though I'll still be taking it again, until then.
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