Beautiful Imperfection

Beautiful Imperfection is an album by Asa. 

If you remember, I posted something about it in January around the time of its initial release. This time its different! Yes, Asa released the US special edition +2 bonus tracks and it debuted at #5 on the BILLBOARD WORLD ALBUM CHARTS!! I mean how cool is that? I said it before and I'll say it again, I love her, she makes me proud to be Nigerian.

P.S. It was also #3 a few days ago but its now back to #5 :( 

"Powerful vocals that channel Amy Winehouse at her peak… and lyrics that recall Bob Marley and Marvin Gaye"- Teen Vogue.

Baby boy

I felt the innocence
of his soul
in the naivety of his speech,
but I led him on
with my soft yet deceptive nods
while I rendered him my ears.

I watched his fingertips
tremble from the great battle
that was going down in his mind
as he contemplated on what exactly he should,
and shouldn't say
and when I took his palms in mine,
I felt his heartbeat
as it resonated the purity,
in his childish wisdom.

A playful tease danced,
at the tip of my tongue
but I refused to hinder him
from allowing his spirit wander free,
in my presence.

His eyes flickered with fear,
and his troubled face left me
feeling as helpless as I usually do
because the same shackles bind me,
so that we can only offer each other
the comfort that comes with companionship.

I refuse to be the one who will encourage him
to throw away his shorts,
for some pants;
a boy cannot teach a boy,
to be a man.

I would rather sit,
and watch his radiating skin shed
with time and life,
and watch it give way
to the puberty filled skin
of a stressed out teenager.

I would rather kiss my baby
until his brown skin almost turns red 
in a blush,
while I tell him he is the man of my life
and he tells me the only truth I believe 
like the black and white words,
in His book:
'I love you too'.

I love my MAMA!!

The title says it best, I can't describe how I feel any further.
My mother is just the most amazing creature on this earth to me, I can't stop being grateful to God for her, honestly.
I know everyone says this, but for real, "My mama is the best in the world"

♥

Hurt

I'm finally back home!

I was away on a four-day biology trip recently and it was not as horrible as I had anticipated. It was just not fun, especially for me. I have learnt that I am clearly an urban spirit I do not particularly fancy anything that has to do with nature.

We basically did the most random things but all about biology; this part wasn't too bad. The bad parts were the actual locations of the various activities. It was a National Park so there were bugs, mosquitoes, reeds, horses, donkeys, cows, birds (basically an intense dearth of basic civilization) and although the hotel was fantastic we didn't even spend close to half the time in it.

Don't get me started on the food. I just finally know for sure that switching to a healthy eating lifestyle will definitely be tasking for me. All in all, the trip was looking like one I would leave saying "I had fun" until I fell down and twisted my ankle for the first time ever. So now I'm sitting in bed with a sore ankle and an SAT Manual and will probably be like this for the next few days.

Poem I wrote for Femme Fatale

INTERRED

"... cause the way things are going, I'm starting to wonder if we could even try to be friends.."

He handed me my heart.
He held it out to me like that dirty piece of cloth you can't stand to hold on to for another second.
Just like that, in less than 100 characters he sent me his final goodbye.

I sat there like a glass of cold water had just been thrown in my face; I was in shock.
I didn't know what to do with the little smoke cloud of pride that was left after the explosion of my heart.
Please allow me elaborate on what we 'were' in a few sentences or two.

You see, we had that 'unspoken secret' love affair type.
You know the one where he has a girlfriend and you have a boyfriend but you still have that underground type thing? Yes, he was that secret I let caress my tongue each time I gossiped with friends because I would have to hold myself back from letting the cat out.

When we became exclusive, I was that girl he'd skip class for.
We were wild and crazy lovers, our souls seemed perfectly aligned.
I'd stay up at night listening to him whisper insignificant plans for our future and then my mind would actually make out childish fantasies of this life he had described so vividly to me.

But then his friends suddenly became the commentators of our love life. I never knew him to be the type to seek counsel from fools who had hisbest interests lost somewhere in their minds but it turns out he was a fool
because his best friend overfed my phone with messages that enveloped those cheesy 'pick-up lines' that make you cringe or almost puke every other day.

Don't you just hate it when this happens? The same people he trusted were playing darts upon his back and he was oblivious to this fact.
When he sat in front of me, I didn't see him only a spitting image of what all his 'guys' looked like
and that frustrated me until I reached that juncture where I let him do whatever the hell he'd want.

I know I should not have condoned such a mess for that long but honestly, he had me.
That was why I would go to bed releasing the flood gates and my pillow would nearly drown because he did more than I could take.
And those sugar-coated lies he told just to postpone the pain I'd eventually feel were like the inhaler to the asthmatic creature I had become.

Now its all over, my body is suddenly my property again and each place you touched me recites a story of what you felt like.
I yearn to have that feeling again but there is no 'for sale' sign here so you can tell your friends to check the next street.
You handed me my heart so now that too is mine again but left all the memories and they will remain with me, interred deeply in my bones.

Blog Link: http://femmefatale-4.blogspot.com/

Promises

The rate at which human  beings make promises without thinking still amazes me. Making a promise to do something does not make it more likely that you will do that thing. So its not relevant to promise to do something if you're no sure you can.

A friend of mine just moved to America and had promised to call me when he got there. Not that I cared if he called or not since we could still talk some other way. I warned him not to promise because he has the best track record for breaking promises but he insisted. And as you must have already guessed, he didn't call and now I'm upset with him.

Moral of the story? Don't make promises you can't keep. Better yet don't promise anything at all whether its a promise to God to to a fellow human, just don't; that is of course unless you're one hundred percent sure you won't break it.

 "It is better to say nothing that to make a promise and not keep it" [Ecclesiastes 5:5]

Change

I have come to accept that everything in life is subject to change. Nothing can stay the same for sure and I guess that's just life. I think people should always learn to embrace change whether it is a major change in your life or someone you know that has changed. Change must always be accompanied with acceptance.

This summer, I changed a whole lot but not in who I am as a person rather in my general outlook on life. It all began when I stumbled upon this quote:

"For everything you have missed, you have gained something else and for everything you gain, you lose something else" - Ralph Waldo Emerson.

In life, you might miss out on a few things but you gain something worthwhile in exchange and sometimes people might perceive this as a changed attitude in you but that shouldn't bother you because always with change you might lose friends or people who don't accept the new you; this is how life sadly is.

I realized that this summer and I really sat down to think about the areas in my life that require change and so far I have been doing a good job. I get scared of trying out new things because I tend to be temperamental which would explain my inconsistency with blogging; this too will change.

I would like to refer to this stage as the 'maturing stage' in my life ("Its about time" my mother would most likely say if she read this.) and I'm loving every bit of it.

Speaking of change, I'm now a part of this other blog that's strictly about being artistic and its been going fantastic even though we've been doing a lot of writing in terms of poetry, prose etc. Anyway, kindly check it out: http://femmefatale-4.blogspot.com/

ELI

Iceprince's debut album 'Everybody Loves Iceprince' finally has a set release date. The wait is over and now all that can be done next is to countdown to the final release date of 7th Oct and the album launch on 9.10.11. I'm very excited and I have very high expectations so I hope the album does good.