“Where shall I go? To the left where nothing is right? Or to the right where nothing is left?"
-@EpicTweets_
29 Nov 2010
28 Nov 2010
AUTUMN
Autumns leaves rained down gracelessly.
The trees had grown tired and gave up the fight.
They had held on to the leaves for so long but now it's time to let them go.
Red, orange, yellow, I sat watching them silently.
They looked almost golden under the sunlight and
All bore different characteristics telling different stories of which I was curious to know.
The first was fierce, a warrior perhaps.
Blood stains on his face, his grey past hovering like shadows behind him.
Jagged and rough edges, told of his life.
The dying widow.
Her cancer had spread beyond control, she was incomplete.
All she can do is smile, that made her appear golden, that made her feel happy.
A vivacious teenage boy.
Bright and spotless. His whole life ahead of him:
Long and promising.
I sat there entranced by the surrealty of autums's chaotic beauty.
The stripping naked of trees.
The chasing away of flowers.
The wind is her ally, the night time her friend.
But she doesn't stay for long because
sooner than later, the time will come for autumn to depart and give way to winter.
The trees had grown tired and gave up the fight.
They had held on to the leaves for so long but now it's time to let them go.
Red, orange, yellow, I sat watching them silently.
They looked almost golden under the sunlight and
All bore different characteristics telling different stories of which I was curious to know.
The first was fierce, a warrior perhaps.
Blood stains on his face, his grey past hovering like shadows behind him.
Jagged and rough edges, told of his life.
The dying widow.
Her cancer had spread beyond control, she was incomplete.
All she can do is smile, that made her appear golden, that made her feel happy.
A vivacious teenage boy.
Bright and spotless. His whole life ahead of him:
Long and promising.
I sat there entranced by the surrealty of autums's chaotic beauty.
The stripping naked of trees.
The chasing away of flowers.
The wind is her ally, the night time her friend.
But she doesn't stay for long because
sooner than later, the time will come for autumn to depart and give way to winter.
27 Nov 2010
Away in the dark ..
It’s sad to say
In many things in my life
I see that I am compared with others, but it’s the truth
It hurts to think,
When I set out to start something
I feel it becoming a race between myself and others, that’s just deep.
When I fight for something
My self-esteem won’t let me do it the proper way
So, I end up rushing back into my shell
Covering myself from the world,
But I bet even a snail watches through its tiny little hole
Because I still see people staring,
I still feel the scrutiny
I still hear their comparisons
When I don't fight at all
My interest is questioned, I'm made to be icy.
My words mean nothing
Because my actions aren't expressing the same
I can still see people staring
I can still feel the scrutiny
This time, I can more than hear their comparisons
I try to act like it doesn’t bug me
Hoping that will make me feel better
But you can only hide yourself in the darkness for so long because the sun will come up by morning
And the pain only reincarnates in a more hurtful way each time.
It’s hard to hold my lips up in a smile because my mind and soul are fat with depression.
My tears are in constant battle with my eyes.
Piercing them so much, forcing them to bleed with my cries.
I want to be strong, I want to be happy, I want to ignore shit
But I'm not ready for that yet.
Ive tried and failed countless times.
Ill rather be detached from reality for now.
In many things in my life
I see that I am compared with others, but it’s the truth
It hurts to think,
When I set out to start something
I feel it becoming a race between myself and others, that’s just deep.
When I fight for something
My self-esteem won’t let me do it the proper way
So, I end up rushing back into my shell
Covering myself from the world,
But I bet even a snail watches through its tiny little hole
Because I still see people staring,
I still feel the scrutiny
I still hear their comparisons
When I don't fight at all
My interest is questioned, I'm made to be icy.
My words mean nothing
Because my actions aren't expressing the same
I can still see people staring
I can still feel the scrutiny
This time, I can more than hear their comparisons
I try to act like it doesn’t bug me
Hoping that will make me feel better
But you can only hide yourself in the darkness for so long because the sun will come up by morning
And the pain only reincarnates in a more hurtful way each time.
It’s hard to hold my lips up in a smile because my mind and soul are fat with depression.
My tears are in constant battle with my eyes.
Piercing them so much, forcing them to bleed with my cries.
I want to be strong, I want to be happy, I want to ignore shit
But I'm not ready for that yet.
Ive tried and failed countless times.
Ill rather be detached from reality for now.
26 Nov 2010
Send your affections pouring down on me with every word you drop
Let your warmth penetrate through my skin
Let it sink into my soul
Let me long for some more of you.
Don't let me go because I will only come back for more
Hold me tight so I can smell you inside me.
If you want, you can stab me with your kisses
But when I'm cry you must comfort me with your hugs.
Wrap yourself around me
Don't ever let me feel this emptiness again.
I want to smile like this forever
So just shower me with your love ..
23 Nov 2010
Rose
She stood there waiting for him.
Hoping he’ll show up.
Yearning for him to come.
Craving for him as she grew impatient.
Waiting as the earth continued orbiting around the sun.
Feeling sad as the sun set; It no longer shone on her part of the world.
The sky went grey and she let the rain wash her pain away.
She might be gone for today but tomorrow she’ll come out to wait for him again,
like the patient and beautiful ROSE she is ..
Hoping he’ll show up.
Yearning for him to come.
Craving for him as she grew impatient.
Waiting as the earth continued orbiting around the sun.
Feeling sad as the sun set; It no longer shone on her part of the world.
The sky went grey and she let the rain wash her pain away.
She might be gone for today but tomorrow she’ll come out to wait for him again,
like the patient and beautiful ROSE she is ..
Left.
He was meant to come, but he didn’t show.
She cried but the pain only became sublime.
Her heart hurt like it had been ripped apart.
She wanted to kill herself, end the suffering.
He left her there all alone in the rain.
He left her there all alone in the rain.
Although by now she ought to know.
She still had hoped it different this time.
The rain eventually grew heavier than her heart
And she realized she had to stop waiting.
She left her umbrella alone in the rain.
She left her umbrella alone in the rain.
22 Nov 2010
Officially 2 more years of Teenagehood
I’m SEVENTEEN today :D
“Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday to ME!”
“Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday to ME!”
21 Nov 2010
20 Nov 2010
Beginning
Recently, all thats been on my mind to do is BLOG. So, I finally decided to just set it up today instead continuing in my procrastination. Im gonna be 17 in a few days so this is gonna be my thing for my 17th year on earth. I'm gonna be posting drawings/paintings & poems by me. Ill also be writing day to day things that happen to me. Its gonna be like an online diary in a way. Im excited :) I really hope this goes well. Its the start of something new ..
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